Change

Change is in the air.....as a matter of fact, it really is in the air. It's 80 degrees today and oh so beautiful. (Sorry to all of you in the crappy weather belts.) As much as I love the sun, I'm still draggin. It's been a challenge to get past the emotional hurdles, once the physical ones have passed. Mr. W fired up his pizza oven last night (see Bun in His Oven post) and cooked up some killer pizza, so at least he got his bun in the oven. Nice.

RE ordered me into the lab today for an hcg - to confirm all was done and gone. Duh.....but ok I played along. Yep, it's a zero, nada, zilch. And herein lies my next movement for change. Could you pass me that records release form? Haven't decided where these records are going yet, but for now they're going with me. I'm contemplating the local University (ranked #3 nationally) or the Rocky Mountain Kingdom (aka CCRM), or Top Doc's clinic I visited previously, or another gig in a nearby bigger city. Having options is a good thing. And it sure beats stock options these days.

I'm also hitting the TCM circuit. Super Doc actually likes the idea and thinks he's going to check it out for himself. He's agreed to start acupuncture and the whole bit. In the mean time, I'm staring at a bottle of D.HEA, COQ.10 and some other nifty things I've been reading about. I also read about Pyc.nogenol for severe MFI. Any thoughts on this from the gallery?

And, on the subject of change, Mr W's health insurance is up for renewal soon. Since he has the lucky ability to choose the plan for the company, we're searching for one that covers IF. Unfortunately so far we've only got one option and it only covers 50%. But, 50% of $15,000 is better than a kick in the ass....or a stab with a $500 needle.

I'm seriously thinking about quitting my job. I like my job....or I like the tax write-offs it affords, because I sure as hell ain't raking in the bucks these days. I like having my own schedule and for the most part, my clients are really great. I tried "cutting back" a few years ago when we tackled this IF project before but I wasn't successful. Clients would call and beg and I would get suckered in and work more. Now, I'm at a crossroads. The economy would easily let me drift away...perhaps more quietly, but then I'd feel like I'm admitting defeat for other reasons. And, somewhere I have an ego that rears its head and wants itself flattered. And it's a greedy little ego bastard that wants to keep it's paycheck. Oh, change is definitely in the air. I'm tellin ya.